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  Love’s Shadow

  A Novel

  Ada Leverson

  NEW YORK • BERLIN • LONDON

  Love like a shadow flies

  When substance love pursues;

  Pursuing that that flies,

  And flying what pursues.

  SHAKESPEARE

  Table of Contents

  1 Hyacinth

  2 The anxieties of Sir Charles

  3 Anne Yeo

  4 The sound sense of Lady Cannon

  5 A proposal

  6 The little Ottleys

  7 Hyacinth’s little dinner

  8 Lord Selsey

  9 The peculiarities of Raggett

  10 A musical afternoon

  11 The troubles of the Ottleys

  12 At the National Gallery

  13 More of the little Ottleys

  14 Lady Cannon’s visit

  15 Raggett in Love

  16 Archie

  17 Bruce’s play

  18 Hyacinth waits

  19 Eugenia

  20 Bruce has influenza

  21 ‘Engaged’

  22 The strange behaviour of Anne

  23 Bruce convalescent

  24 The wedding

  25 Accounts

  26 Confidences

  27 Miss Wrenner

  28 Anne returns

  29 The ingratitude of Mitchell

  30 Mitchell behaves decently

  31 Jane’s sister

  32 The drive

  33 The quarrel

  34 Anne and Eugenia

  35 ‘That woman’

  36 Raggett’s sense of humour

  37 Sir Charles

  38 Rehearsing

  39 The solution

  A Note on the Author

  Hyacinth

  ‘There’s only one thing I must really implore you, Edith,’ said Bruce anxiously. ‘Don’t make me late at the office!’

  ‘Certainly not, Bruce,’ answered Edith sedately. She was seated opposite her husband at breakfast in a very new, very small, very white flat in Knightsbridge – exactly like thousands of other new, small, white flats. She was young and pretty, but not obvious. One might suppose that she was more subtle than was shown by her usual expression, which was merely cheerful and intelligent.

  ‘Now I have to write that letter before I go,’ Bruce exclaimed, starting up and looking at her reproachfully. ‘Why didn’t I write it last night?’

  Edith hadn’t the slightest idea, as she had heard nothing of the letter before, but, in the course of three years, she had learnt that it saved time to accept trifling injustices. So she looked guilty and a little remorseful. He magnanimously forgave her, and began to write the letter at a neat white writing-table.

  ‘How many g’s are there in “Raggett”?’ he asked suspiciously.

  She didn’t answer, apparently overtaken by a sudden fit of absence of mind.

  ‘Only one, of course. How absurd you are!’ said her husband, laughing, as he finished the letter and came back to the table.

  She poured out more coffee.

  ‘It’s a curious thing,’ he went on in a tone of impartial regret, ‘that, with all the fuss about modern culture and higher education nowadays, girls are not even taught to spell!’

  ‘Yes, isn’t it? But even if I had been taught, it might not have been much use. I might just not have been taught to spell “Raggett”. It’s a name, isn’t it?’

  ‘It’s a very well-known name,’ said Bruce.

  ‘I daresay it is, but I don’t know it. Would you like to see the boy before you go?’

  ‘What a question! I always like to see the boy. But you know perfectly well I haven’t time this morning.’

  ‘Very well, dear. You can see him this afternoon.’

  ‘Why do you say that? You know I’m going golfing with Goldthorpe! It really is hard, Edith, when a man has to work so much that he has scarcely any time for his wife and child.’

  She looked sympathetic.

  ‘What are you doing today?’ he asked.

  ‘Hyacinth’s coming to fetch me for a drive in the motor.’

  His face brightened. He said kindly, ‘I am so glad, darling, that you have such a delightful friend – when I can’t be with you. I admire Hyacinth very much, in every way. She seems devoted to you, too, which is really very nice of her. What I mean to say is, that in her position she might know anybody. You see my point?’

  ‘Quite.’

  ‘How did you meet her originally?’

  ‘We were school-friends.’

  ‘She’s such a lovely creature; I wonder she doesn’t marry.’

  ‘Yes, but she has to find someone else whom she thinks a lovely creature, too.’

  ‘Edith, dear.’

  ‘Yes, Bruce.’

  ‘I wish you wouldn’t snap me up like that. Oh, I know you don’t mean it, but it’s growing on you, rather.’

  She tried to look serious, and said gently, ‘Is it, really? I am sorry.’

  ‘You don’t mind me telling you of it, do you?’

  ‘Not at all. I’m afraid you will be late, Bruce.’

  He started up and hurried away, reminding Edith that dinner was to be at eight. They parted with affectionate smiles.

  When he had gone down in the lift, Edith took an inextensive walk through the entire flat, going into each room, and looking at herself in every looking-glass. She appeared to like herself best in the dining-room mirror, for she returned, stared into it rather gravely for some little time, and then said to herself: ‘Yes, I’m beginning to look bored.’

  Then she rang the bell, and the nurse brought in a pretty little boy of nearly two, fluffily dressed in white, who was excited at the prospect of his great morning treat – going down in the lift. Speaking of him with some formality as Master Archie, she asked the nurse a few questions, which she mistakenly supposed gave that personage the impression that she knew all that there was to be known about children. When she was alone with him for a minute she rushed at him impulsively, saying, privately, ‘Heavenly pet! Divine angel! Duck!’ in return for which he pulled her hair down and scratched her face with a small empty Noah’s Ark that he was taking out with him for purposes of his own.

  When he had gone she did her hair up again in a different way parted in the middle. It was very pretty, wavy, fair hair, and she had small, regular features, so the new way suited her very well. Then she said again –

  ‘Yes, if it were not for Hyacinth I should soon look bored to death!’

  Hyacinth Verney was the romance of Edith’s life. She also provided a good deal of romance in the lives of several other people. Her position was unusual, and her personality fascinating. She had no parents, was an heiress, and lived alone with a companion in a quaint little house just out of Berkeley Square, with a large studio that was never used for painting. She had such an extraordinary natural gift for making people of both sexes fond of her, that it would have been difficult to say which, of all the persons who loved her, showed the most intense devotion in the most immoderate way. Probably her cousin and guardian, Sir Charles Cannon, and her companion, Anne Yeo, spent more thought and time in her service than did anybody else. Edith’s imagination had been fired in their school-days by her friend’s beauty and cleverness, and by the fact that she had a guardian, like a book. Then Hyacinth had come out and gone in for music, for painting, and for various other arts and pursuits of an absorbing character. She had hardly any acquaintances except her relations, but possessed an enormously large number of extremely intimate friends – a characteristic that had remained to her from her childhood.

  Hyacinth’s ideal of society was to have no padding, Hyacinth’s ideal of society was to have no padding, so that most of the members of her circle were type
s. Still, as she had a perfect passion for entertaining, there remained, of course, a residue; distant elderly connections with well-sounding names (as ballast), and a few vague hangers-on; several rather dull celebrities, some merely pretty and well-dressed women, and a steadily increasing number of good-looking young men. Hyacinth was fond of decoration.

  As she frankly admitted, she had rather fallen back on Edith, finding her, after many experiments, the most agreeable of friends, chiefly because in their intercourses everything was always taken for granted. Like sisters, they understood one another without explanation – à demi-mot.

  While Edith waited impatiently in the hall of the flat, Anne Yeo, her unacknowledged rival in Hyacinth’s affections, was doing needlework in the window-seat of the studio, and watching Hyacinth, who, dressed to go out, was walking up and down the room. With a rather wooden face, high cheekbones, a tall, thin figure, and no expression, Anne might have been any age; but she was not. She made every effort to look quite forty so as to appear more suitable as a chaperone, but was in reality barely thirty. She was thinking, as she often thought, that Hyacinth looked too romantic for everyday life. When they had travelled together, this fact had been rather a nuisance.

  ‘Why, when you call at the Stores to order groceries, must you look as if you were going to elope?’ she asked dryly. ‘In an ordinary motorveil you have the air of hastening to some mysterious appointment.’

  ‘But I’m only going to fetch Edith Ottley for a drive,’ said Hyacinth. ‘How bored she must get with her little Foreign Office clerk! The way he takes his authority as a husband seriously is pathetic. He hasn’t the faintest idea the girl is cleverer than he is.’

  ‘You’d far better leave her alone, and not point it out,’ said Anne. ‘You’re always bothering about these little Ottleys now. But you’ve been very restless lately. Whenever you try to do people good, and especially when you motor so much and so fast, I recognise the symptoms. It’s coming on again, and you’re trying to get away from it.’

  ‘Don’t say that. I’m never going to care about anyone again,’ said Hyacinth.

  ‘You don’t know it, but when you’re not in love you’re not yourself,’ Anne continued. ‘It’s all you live for.’

  ‘Oh, Anne!’

  ‘It’s quite true. It’s nearly three months since you – had an attack. Blair was the last. Now you’re beginning to take the same sort of interest in Cecil Reeve.’

  ‘How mistaken you are, Anne! I don’t take at all the same interest in him. It’s a totally different thing. I don’t really even like him.’

  ‘You wouldn’t go out today if you were expecting him.’

  ‘Yes, but I’m not . . . and he doesn’t care two straws about me. Once he said he never worshipped in a crowded temple!’

  ‘It’s a curious coincidence that ever since then you’ve been out to everyone else,’ said Anne.

  ‘I don’t really like him – so very much. When he does smile, of course it’s rather nice. Why does he hate me?’

  ‘I can’t think,’ said Anne.

  ‘He doesn’t hate me! How can you say so?’ cried Hyacinth.

  ‘Doesn’t he?’

  ‘Perhaps it’s because he thinks I look Spanish. He may disapprove of looking Spanish,’ suggested Hyacinth.

  ‘Very likely.’

  Hyacinth laughed, kissed her, and went out. Anne followed her graceful figure with disapproving, admiring eyes.

  The anxieties of Sir Charles

  Like all really uncommon beauties, Hyacinth could only be adequately described by the most hackneyed phrases. Her eyes were authentically sapphire-coloured; brilliant, frank eyes, with a subtle mischief in them, softened by the most conciliating long eyelashes. Then, her mouth was really shaped like a Cupid’s bow, and her teeth were dazzling; also she had a wealth of dense, soft, brown hair and a tall, sylphlike, slimly-rounded figure. Her features were delicately regular, and her hands and feet perfection. Her complexion was extremely fair, so she was not a brunette; some remote Spanish ancestor on her mother’s side was, however, occasionally mentioned as an apology for a type and a supple grace sometimes complained of by people with white eyelashes as rather un-English. So many artistic young men had told her she was like La Gioconda, that when she first saw the original in the Louvre she was so disappointed that she thought she would never smile again.

  About ten minutes after the pretty creature had gone out, Anne, who had kept her eyes steadily on the clock, looked out of the window, from which she could see a small brougham driving up. She called out into the hall –

  ‘If that’s Sir Charles Cannon, tell him Miss Verney is out, but I have a message for him.’

  A minute later there entered a thin and distinguished-looking, grey-haired man of about forty-five, wearing a smile of such excessive cordiality that one felt it could only have been brought to his well-bred lips by acute disappointment. Anne did not take the smile literally, but began to explain away the blow.

  ‘I’m so sorry,’ she said apologetically. ‘I’m afraid it’s partly my fault. When she suddenly decided to go out with that little Mrs Ottley, she told me vaguely to telephone to you. But how on earth could I know where you were?’

  ‘How indeed? It doesn’t matter in the least, my dear Miss Yeo. I mean, it’s most unfortunate, as I’ve just a little free time. Lady Cannon’s gone to a matinée at the St James’s. We had tickets for the first night, but of course she wouldn’t use them then. She preferred to go alone in the afternoon, because she detests the theatre, anyhow, and afternoon performances give her a headache. And if she does a thing that’s disagreeable to her, she likes to do it in the most painful possible way. She has a beautiful nature.’

  Anne smiled, and passed him a little gold box.

  ‘Have a cigarette?’ she suggested.

  ‘Thanks — I’m not really in a bad temper. But why this relapse of devotion to little Mrs Ottley? And why are you and I suddenly treated with marked neglect?’

  ‘Mrs Ottley,’ said Anne, ‘is one of those young women, rather bored with their husbands, who are the worst possible companions for Hyacinth. They put her off marrying.’

  ‘Bored, is she? She didn’t strike me so. A pleasant, bright girl. I suppose she amuses Hyacinth?’

  ‘Yes; of course, she’s not a dull old maid over forty, like me,’ said Anne.

  ‘No-one would believe that description of you,’ said Sir Charles, with a bow that was courtly but absent. As a matter of fact, he did believe it, but it wasn’t true.

  ‘If dear little Mrs Ottley,’ he continued, ‘married in too great a hurry, far be it from me to reproach her. I married in a hurry myself – when Hyacinth was ten.’

  ‘And when she was eighteen you were very sorry,’ said Anne in her colourless voice.

  ‘Don’t let us go into that, Miss Yeo. Of course, Hyacinth is a beautiful – responsibility. People seem to think she ought to have gone on living with us when she left school. But how was it possible? Hyacinth said she intended to live for her art, and Lady Cannon couldn’t stand the scent of oils.’ He glanced round the large panelled-oak room in which not a picture was to be seen. The only indication of its having ever been meant for a studio was the north light, carefully obstructed (on the grounds of unbecomingness) by gently-tinted draperies of some fabric suggesting Liberty’s. ‘Life wasn’t worth living, trying to keep the peace!’

  ‘But you must have missed her?’

  ‘Still, I prefer coming to see her here. And knowing she has you with her is, after all, everything.’

  He looked a question.

  ‘Yes, she has. I mean, she seems rather – absorbed again lately,’ said Anne.

  ‘Who is it?’ he asked. ‘I always feel so indiscreet and treacherous talking over her private affairs like this with you, though she tells me everything herself. I’m not sure it’s the act of a simple, loyal, Christian English gentleman; in fact, I’m pretty certain it’s not. I suppose that’s why I enjoy it so much.’


  ‘I daresay,’ said Anne; ‘but she wouldn’t mind it.’

  ‘What has been happening?’

  ‘Nothing interesting. Hazel Kerr came here the other day and brought with him a poem in bronze lacquer, as he called it. He read it aloud – the whole of it.’

  ‘Good heavens! Poetry! Do people still do that sort of thing? I thought it had gone out years ago – when I was a young man.’

  ‘Of course, so it has. But Hazel Kerr is out of date. Hyacinth says he’s almost a classic.’

  ‘His verses?’

  ‘Oh no! His method. She says he’s an interesting survival – he’s walked straight out of another age – the nineties, you know. There were poets in those days.’

  ‘Method! He was much too young then to have a style at all, surely!’

  ‘That was the style. It was the right thing to be very young in the nineties. It isn’t now.’

  ‘It’s not so easy now, for some of us,’ murmured Sir Charles.

  ‘But Hazel keeps it up,’ Anne answered.

  Sir Charles laughed irritably. ‘He keeps it up, does he? But he sits people out openly, that shows he’s not really dangerous. One doesn’t worry about Hazel. It’s that young man who arrives when everybody’s going, or goes before anyone else arrives, that’s what I’m a little anxious about.’

  ‘If you mean Cecil Reeve, Hyacinth says he doesn’t like her.’

  ‘I’m sorry to hear that. If anything will interest her, that will. Yet I don’t know why I should mind. At any rate, he certainly isn’t trying to marry her for interested reasons, as he’s very well off – or perhaps for any reasons. I’m told he’s clever, too.’

  ‘His appearance is not against him either,’ said Anne dryly; ‘so what’s the matter with him?’

  ‘I don’t know exactly. I think he’s capable of playing with her.’

  ‘Perhaps he doesn’t really appreciate her,’ suggested Anne.

  ‘Oh, yes, he does. He’s a connoisseur – confound him! He appreciates her all right. But it’s all for himself – not for her.

  By the way, I’ve heard his name mentioned with another woman’s name. But I happen to know there’s nothing in it.’